Friday, December 10, 2010

I'm No Fool

When dealing with the average "jump-off" their thought process shouldn't matter... as long as it benefits you. They can be a simple minded somebody wrapped in nice packaging that stay in their time restricted compartment until the tolerance for something deeper comes along. You can call them after 10 pm and always reach them. A restaurant or club is the ideal "date", and some sort of sexual encounter is given in exchange. The single life is made of stuff like that. Drunken nights that are often forgotten with plenty of shenanigans along the way. Its "cute" to be accompanied by that personality that is extreme: quick to get fucked up, quick to fight, quick to fuck.
The spontaneity adds the spice that most lacking lives need, but instability isn't normal to human nature, and causes us to be something that we're not: anxious, ruthless, and jaded. The type of people who should be grouped up and placed on their own island. A place where the rest of us could visit to indulge ourselves, then get back to the real world.
When dealing with your lover, boyfriend, or girlfriend, the person you actually claim, it's best to choose someone who can hold their own and you can have a decent conversation with. Someone who isn't focused on satisfying their inner party so much,

but knows and cares for you enough, to not stress you out. When you've left "simple island", the land of opportunists... you stop eating the bullshit that people feed you and look for things that are better for your personal well being. I've learned through my previous demanding relationships, what I can and can not deal with. I've learned how to cope with stress and to not get sucked into the emotional games most like to play. My Han doesn't fully understand that aspect of me; the level of self control it takes not to lose myself, in the heat of the moment. It's just as simple as knowing my safety zone, and having enough respect for myself to not let someone else's emotional mismanagement destroy me.

When you look at most relationships, there's only two roles to fill: the shot caller and the one who plays the fool. Its true, behind every strong man is a stronger woman, but what they don't tell you is what you have to go through to get that type of strength. And that the other persons dreams are put to the side, until they are forgotten all together. Most women who date CEO's, entertainers, any position that causes a lot of time away and a demographic depending of them understand that they will be expected to "understand". They aren't given the courtesy of expressing their frustrations and aren't given permission to lash out. With that comes many nights and special occasions alone, and the anxiety waiting for the email that reads: "thinking of you". Unfortunately, when people are given the space they need to accomplish things to provide comfort, they take advantage and come back with a "sex addiction" and 10+ mistresses. I'm not saying that this is inevitable, but.... it happens, lol. And the woman effected has nothing but strength left, after the years have passed, to get her back to living her life.
I'm all for fighting for love, but I won't play the fool just to make my lover feel like a king.

fool (noun): a silly or stupid person; a person who lacks judgment or sense. weak minded or idiotic person.

Once you have chosen someone, you become a reflection of each other, and personally, I want to be properly represented. Let's toast, to the longevity of your romantic life...


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